My mother had a talk with Steve before she left. One of
those I wish I were a fly on the wall talks that make people sit up and forward
in their seat and say “Please, do tell,” with a gleam in their smile.
As my mother succinctly put, “Steve has a good heart, but he’s
unstable.” If only his life could be so aptly summarized.
My mother basically told Steve to go get a full time job,
i.e., Go away, you need to go away. The “understood” part was “from my
daughter.”
Initially, around day three after we met, when Steve told me
he had an offer with Locomotors and potentially Honda, that it would take him three
years to learn all he needed to know to start his own car company, I told him
that it would be best if we met again in three years. I was just starting my
own career and had too much to do than get involved. Steve respected that and
said that if I had an identical twin, she would be his ideal woman. I admit,
that got me.
So a little over a month later, I introduced Steve to my
mother and she told Steve to go away somewhere and get a full-time job. It wasn’t
a coincidence that almost six months later, Steve’s mentor Taylor Geckle, auto
designer extraordinairre told Steve the same thing. Everyone knew what was good for Steve except
Steve. When he finally caught up, it was too late to do what was good for him,
because something kept stopping him from doing the things that would finally
advance his life and stabilize him.
If there were a way of succinctly summarizing Steve’s life
in terms of what was externally wrong with it, one could safely say that there
was always something stopping him from achieving his dreams once he set his
mind to it. Usually, it was a friend who felt depressed, so down they felt
suicidal, a damsel in distress, that usually got Steve’s macho heart. He was a
chump for a sob story, and the Universe--I mean the world--was full of them.
So, Steve said yeah, he’d stay away from me, because my
mother told him that I had been through too many years of taking care of other
people and not myself so that I had not been able to achieve anything in my own
life. Things had gotten so bad that my health was wrecked and my mother told
Steve that this was my last chance to get somewhere with the education that I had
worked so hard for otherwise it would be a loss. Potential lost. Like Paradise
Lost.
So Steve understood and with all his mind, but not his
heart, intended to get a job with Loco Motors in Arizona. Except that Steve had
some intense pains that required medical marijuana. He wouldn’t say what but
you could in his face that his life was an opera of pain from act one through
intermission until the final curtain call. His blood shot eyes, his laughed
tinged with bitterness, the bags that had bags under his eyes. Those were the
worst. Not even his gaunt, sunken cheeks could compare to the bags under his
eyes. They seemed filled with every trauma that had beset Steve and had nestled
into the bags under his eyes until they bulged like obscene trophies of how the
Universe--I mean the world--had triumphed over Steve…and his will.
With this caution to Steve, to go away, my mother left town.
Actually, she would have stayed longer, for she did not trust Steve to leave. But
she had another trip to the East Coast to my sisters soon. What happened after
my mother left—well, she often shook her head because my sisters were settled.
Indeed, it was one sister on the East Coast that I had spend so much of my time
helping that wrecked my health, so my mother really did not need to go there,
had she known what was about to happen to me, but who could really know?
Except, perhaps, the Universe. I mean, the world.
With an observation that I was “solid,” I drove my mother to
LAX, returned to the hotel where she and I had been staying, and followed up on
the many apartment leads my mother had found for me.
None of them returned my call.
So I continued searching. Several more said they would be
happy to have me. I told the apartment managers about my lack of credit and
prior to that my less than stellar history but that I had started work as an
attorney. Most of them were touched by my story and said that my credit history
would not be a bar from renting. When I had filled out the application for some
places, I called to make an appointment to submit the application but never received
a return phone call. Odd, the apartment managers were so enthusiastic about me.
I could not stay in the Extended Stay forever so I decided
to pursue the informal roommate option. You know, roommates who already were
renting and did not have to go through the formal credit application. Again, I had
a couple of places who wanted me immediately, for instance, a few who wanted me
to replace a roommate who was moving out, all legit of course. One lady was
about to rent to me when her brother unexpectedly found a job in the area and
wanted to stay with her.
The one case that stuck out was a place in Long Beach in the
Alamitos area that had several African American males. I had emailed them and
had not received a reply so went directly to the address listed. The ad had
expressed a preference for a male roommate, less drama supposedly. However, the
three male roommates were open to a female roommate.
When I arrived, two girls were there. None of my potential
male roommates were home. The girls admitted that they were always around and
contributed to utilities. They told me that one of my potential roommates, Al, had
a son. I was cool with that, seven or eight people in a four bedroom apartment.
My room would be the smallest. The girlfriends always hanging around and yet
the place was so unkempt. That didn’t bother me either. They were all
hardworking, honest, decent folk, and I knew I would be safe. They said their
neighborhood was safe as well.
Mike came home first. I spoke to him, asked him questions. He
didn’t really interview me, seemed to think I was fine for a roommate on sight,
and said if I could wait a bit, his two other roommates would be home from
work. Al came home next. He was a handsome, no nonsense man, and his three-year
old son who said, “Shu be-bu-bul.” What?
“Yes, she’s beautiful,” Al translated for me. I laughed. It
had been a long time since I could even think about my looks. We talked, I asked
about the safety and parking in the neighborhood, Al said it was safe, no
problems since he had been here for four years.
Both Mike and Al were happy to have me as their roommate. Their
roommate, Damion, would be home soon. He approved of me as well. I went out to
my car, excited, texting Steve: looks
like I got a place! Three guys in a Long Beach neighborhood. They’re ready to
take me without a credit application and told me the room could be ready for me
by the weekend.
My texts often run long.
Steve texted back: Great!
That’s when the first two police cruisers came. They parked down
the street from where I was parked. Then two more came. A fire truck, an
ambulance, followed by a few more police cars. I snapped some pics and texted
Steve.
This sign was in front of one of the hoses on the street
where this major incident occurred.
Steve: Wow.
Then I walked towards the emergency. A pale, white Caucasian
male with matching washed out hair was carried out on a gurney. No blood, just
a distressingly pale face. And body. I recall that was odd because the sheet
was not pulled up.
I asked an onlooker what was happening.
“I dunno,” he said, “looks like someone almost got murdered.”
I asked another neighbor. “I have no idea, nothing like this
has ever happened here before,” She was evidently amazed at what was happening.
I looked around the neighborhood. Every onlooker appeared amazed. It was a
strictly middle-middle class neighborhood in Long Beach, not rich but everyone
there worked hard and appeared to keep their nose clean.
I approached a Hispanic man in his late forties, curly
brunette. “I’m thinking about moving in down the block and was wondering if it’s
safe. Has anything like this every happened before?”
He looked at me. “See that house behind me? I was born in
that house. I still live in it. Nothing has ever happened on this block since I’ve
been alive.” For some reason, I believed him. Before I left, I counted no less
than a total of ten police cars, ambulances, and fire trucks.
The next day, I decided to put a deposit down on the apartment.
I called Al and left a message. Never heard back. I did think it was weird but
at the time never thought anything about it. I was steadily getting more work and
was able to stay at my hotel for a while yet. And Steve said I could always
stay with him. Little did I suspect that the Universe--I mean the world--was closing
in on me, especially my choice of rentals.
If you want to skip ahead, read on. A few months later, I checked
the police blotter for that part of town for the day that half the police force
was called out to that part of Long Beach. Nothing required two police officers
at the scene. So why were a dozen government first responders called to that
part of Long Beach without the incident making the police blotter?
More importantly, who on Earth, or rather the Universe, could
engineer such a scenario, with no one questioning it?